Often times in life we face moments of rejection. Which can lead to feelings of failure and feeling disheartened. But lately I’ve begun to change my perception and perspective of rejection. I’m realising more and more that it actually helps to challenge me to keep going. To keep chasing those dreams in my heart.
Rather than parking up the bus and quitting I’m learning to keep one foot in front of the other. In realisation that those no’s aren’t bad and might not mean no forever just a no right now. Over the years I’ve applied for many jobs and been given many rejection letters. I used to get very disheartened when I received these but these days I take it as a positive that they took the time to reply. That really does speak volumes.
More recently it has helped me to start doing something that I’ve wanted to do since my teens. Photography has been a passion of my for a long time. I’ve begun a freelance photography course. Taking. baby steps to where you want to be is totally okay.
I took some time out to relax this afternoon and did some reading. I’m re-reading a book called Big Magic by Elizabeth Gilbert. Reading it is reminding me how important listening to the creativity with in me is. Also how much fear can stop us in our tracks. We need fear to help us judge danger but it does not need to be in the front giving the directions.
In the past I used to find rejection hard to deal with. Rejection is no longer something that affects my self worth. My value is more than a rejection letter. In applying for a job, course, volunteering you are stepping out into the world.
Daring to be yourself.
This time last year I was not in a good place. I was fearful, scared and at times more sad than I’d ever felt before. I desperately wanted to escape and choosing to stay in that difficult situation was one of the bravest things I’ve done.
I’ve learnt that I’m way more resilient than I give myself credit for. To still speak up for myself even if it doesn’t work out. To still treat those who hurt you well. That every time you offer to do something out of the box you are stepping out into the arena. This way of thinking I’ve been learning from Brene Brown and her book Daring Greatly. (you can find out more about her by clicking on the link) I’m currently reading another book by her called Braving The Wilderness. Which I need to pick up again.
Lets keep being brave, stepping out into new things. Chasing the things that bring joy. When we are knocked down lets choose to get back up.
Much love,
Carole
I found this quote today which resonated with me.
But more than brave, you have love. And love is brave. – Richard Paul Evans
Sometimes I like to write. 
Since leaving the last ‘proper’ job back in September 2013, I’ve had interviews at several retailers who haven’t bothered to even contact me afterwards to let me know anything and have spoken to newspapers who have been willing to take feature length travel articles, but didn’t want to pay me for them.
Back in retail now, but the company I work for was very carefully chosen when it came to applying for the job in the light of those interviews and experiences at the company I left/fired as my employer back in 2013.
Writing is on the back burner at the moment, but there’s a new tax year looming, so plans to increase the writing output are being mulled over before the plan of action is made and implemented.
I won’t be giving up the new day job for the forseeable future, but who knows what may happen over the next financial year or so. There are times when you just have to roll the dice to see what happens.
And then take a blooming big deep breath before riding the wave when it happens!