So much to process from the past six months (I started working on this post during the middle of last month) so it’s past the six month mark now. Continuing to learn more about myself, how I react and deal with events. Things have been hard. But looking back also rewarding too.
That when you’re having times when you’re struggling it’s so okay to say you’re not okay. And to get support from those around you. It helped so much having people I could speak to, be there when I was crying. And afterwards feeling much better.
A few months back I posted this..
No matter what trials we face in life I’m learning to remind myself that these experiences are not wasted. I’ve grown more in my faith, standing on what His word says about me. In who’s I belong to and that am precious and valuable to Him.
That trials and challenges can also help other people along the journey in ways you never expected when you were in the middle. These realisations make my heart happy.
There have been many times when I have struggled to speak well of people. Particularly when I have been hurt by them. Those I find hardest to love. But I’m realising more and more that those who have hurt me are hurting too. And when I forgive it is so freeing. Like a weight has been lifted and some chains broken.
Because unforgiven things otherwise can be dragged around causing pain. When I’m not forgiving people I am not choosing to love them well.
Also learning not to be so hard on myself and being content with where I am now. To enjoy these days. Seeing how far I’ve come but also realising that not knowing what’s next is okay too. To continue doing things that bring me joy. To keep going on adventures, collecting memories, taking pictures, being crafty, reading..
Appreciating nature, time with those I love, and to keep writing…
Here’s to learning to be better at being loving to ourselves and those around us.
I’ve come to realise recently that some dreams in our hearts don’t need to be forever.. For me they seem to evolve and grow.. And encourage me to believe that better things are ahead..
They don’t need to stay stagnant. But I know I’ve also been one to let dreams lay dormant.
When you want to see something come to pass but don’t yet have the courage to jump in a the deep end. For me one of those dreams is to have a photography business in family and kids portraits and photo shoots.
Another one is to publish my poems (that is still a work in progress).
There is something powerful in speaking about it even though it’s not yet come to pass
I’m okay with not knowing the how.. That will come in time.
Dreams come in a size too big so that we may grow into them.