So much to process from the past six months (I started working on this post during the middle of last month) so it’s past the six month mark now. Continuing to learn more about myself, how I react and deal with events. Things have been hard. But looking back also rewarding too.
That when you’re having times when you’re struggling it’s so okay to say you’re not okay. And to get support from those around you. It helped so much having people I could speak to, be there when I was crying. And afterwards feeling much better.
A few months back I posted this..
No matter what trials we face in life I’m learning to remind myself that these experiences are not wasted. I’ve grown more in my faith, standing on what His word says about me. In who’s I belong to and that am precious and valuable to Him.
That trials and challenges can also help other people along the journey in ways you never expected when you were in the middle. These realisations make my heart happy.
There have been many times when I have struggled to speak well of people. Particularly when I have been hurt by them. Those I find hardest to love. But I’m realising more and more that those who have hurt me are hurting too. And when I forgive it is so freeing. Like a weight has been lifted and some chains broken.
Because unforgiven things otherwise can be dragged around causing pain. When I’m not forgiving people I am not choosing to love them well.
Also learning not to be so hard on myself and being content with where I am now. To enjoy these days. Seeing how far I’ve come but also realising that not knowing what’s next is okay too. To continue doing things that bring me joy. To keep going on adventures, collecting memories, taking pictures, being crafty, reading..
Appreciating nature, time with those I love, and to keep writing…
Here’s to learning to be better at being loving to ourselves and those around us.
This summer I’m taking part in something pretty exciting…
I’ll be participating in my first cycle sportive the Prudential RideLondon 46 on 30th July. This past weekend I did my first training ride in the Lake District with my Dad.
I’ll be riding for a charity called Bliss who help support premature babies and their families.
Some days can be hard. When you’re not sure what to think and feeling anxious about things. With social media we can make our lives look like everything is okay even when it’s not.
There are times when I need to be honest cause sometimes even then I am struggling. Times of feeling lost, unsure, scared, but hopeful all at once. That despite all that I know that He is on the throne, right beside me, cheering me on and knows the rest of the story.
What may feel like one long slog to me is just a small bend in the road. Times of needing to get a different perspective on things. To lean in, be patent when sometimes all I want to do is escape from feeling scared. But actually it’s better to embrace it, to look fear in the face and say ‘I can do this’. To speak up for myself even if it means facing conflict. I usually just want to run and hide in those moments. But I am worth it! I am worth standing up for and my voice matters!
And I’m excited for what is next in the story… Here’s to continuing the adventure that is life..